Timing is everything

I haven't had a drink for over a week. I haven't had a cigarette for three days.
Yesterday I found out that I may not have my contract renewed because the old bar manager is well enough to work and his job had to be held open for him.
MCITG decided that, even though I don't want anything more than sex, he can't do it anymore - again.
I'm over all of this big time.
Running away is the best option. I can't take this up and down anymore, when is it going to stop?