Job Interviews..

I have job interviews, I don't know why I bothered to get job interviews when I don't like this really cold bloody city, and would prefer to live in the tropics.
I have a job interview tomorrow and I don't really want a job, I prefer to be a lazy bum that sits around reading all day. Sigh.....I must earn rent money I suppose.
Job interviews are so easy, if you just act really confident then people think you are capable of doing the job that you've applied for. Sometimes I have pulled a job that I have no real right to just because I aced the interview.
Anyway, I am going to wish myself luck publicly since to do it privately would be much less egotistical and selfish.

Reasons why I hate being alone

I hate being alone and lonely when I get sick. I'm sick right now, I don't get sick very often but when I do, it's usually not pretty. I have swollen glands and a sore throat and have been doing the hot and cold thing since yesterday. I also have a huge cold sore(again), and my skin has broken out. I look absolutely disgusting, my breath smells(sore throat), and I have no energy.
There is no one I can tell that I am sick(except my Mum) and get some sympathy. No-one to give me cuddles and put up with my whinging, no-one to go to the pharmacy and get me medicine. No-one to ask if I want a cup of tea, or a glass of water, or a panadol, or a back rub. No-one who really gives a a stuff.
I hate being alone and lonely when I lose my job. No-one to give me cuddles, no-one to sympathise and agree when I say what bastards they are, no-one to shout hooray with when I get a job interview or land a new job. No-one to reassure me that I have a lot to offer and actually will land a new job - or lie and try to make me feel better.
Being so alone sucks a lot. There's no reason to go shopping for new clothes. No reason to change the sheets on the bed twice a week. No reason to shave my legs every day. No one to share a new CD with, watch a DVD with, go to dinner with, cook dinner for, play chess with, to share a starry sky with.
I am so over rejection and being used that I know I will have to get used to the idea of being alone.