Friday, April 28, 2006

Tell It like It Is.....

Footy tipping

I am a legend....

I was talked into entering the footy tipping comp at the pub. I paid my twenty bucks and was given a fixtures card. The first week was (supposedly) a hard round to pick and I only got four. I will put that down to the fact that I asked one of the guys at work, who coincidentally, is a footy player, who I should pick.
Well, I won't be asking for help again. The next week I took it upon myself to do some research and with the help of a coin, I put in my tips. Suffice to say, I got 7 out of 8 for the week.
Now, I guess that could be taken for a fluke. I even thought myself that it was more arse than class.
The next week, I again did some intensive research ( the trusty coin toss again) and put in my tips. Low and behold, I did it again, 7 out of 8.
Now, these three weeks , combined scores, put me at the top of the comp, along with another chick. That's not bad going for someone who barracks whole heartedly for Collingwood - the most despised team in the league.
Last week, I had to put in a good effort in order to maintain my high rank among my fellow drinkers, and it must be said, mostly blokes also in the comp. I did it. I got 6 out of 8, putting me firmly ahead of the pack by 3 points.
I am a legend.
So far this week, I have picked the first game. Now there's only 7 more to go for this round.
I will keep my fellow readers up to date with my progress in this (male dominated) activity, and I hope I can continue to toss the coins to my benefit for the rest of the 18 rounds.
Girl power....or what???

Saturday, April 22, 2006

Tell It like It Is.....

A couple of things I thought...

I found this and decided to complete it myself.

Complete the sentence

My ex is: my ex

Maybe I should stop: smoking

I love: puppies

I don't understand: the fascination men have with sports

I lose: money on poker machines

People say I'm: aggressive

Love is: out there somewhere

I will always: be me

Forever is: inconceivable

I never want to: get old alone

I think the current US President: is a dick

When I wake up in the morning: I wish I could go back to sleep until the afternoon

My past is: colourful

I get annoyed when: people do stupid things

Parties are for: other people

My dog is: dead

My cat is: dead

Kisses are the best when: they're done right

Tomorrow: if I wake up will be a good day

I really want to: win the lottery

I have low tolerance for people who: are cruel and ignorant


And tonight I am going to see David Gray, it will be awesome.

Reality bites.....

REality bites....

Have got the sneezes...my dad always says that if you sneeze seven times in a row you're gonna die....
Well, I've sneezed about ten times this time, and you know what? I am gonna die ......someday. So he was right. My mum and dad know all that there is to know about anything that is important, they are so clever, and I am so lucky....

I have been having trouble sleeping lately and have found a way to get to sleep, and get back to sleep when I awake in the middle of the night....this is so strange....I say the rosary....I AM NOT religious....I AM NOT RELIGIOUS....
For some reason, it helps me to block out all the thoughts going around in my head. Focusing on getting the prayer correct totally keeps my mind blank of thoughts.
I have not decided to get religious, I am not an advocate of religion, but have a mantra to chant that seems to still my mind and distinguish my anguish to the point where I totally relax.
Thanks to whomever came up with it

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

Tell It like It Is.....

Tell It like It Is.....

Snow.....
Can I handle the cold? Would I be able to acclimatise?
Maybe if I stand outside next to the heating unit that blows the cold, air in my PJ's, in the middle of the night, and see what happens.....
Do they pay well at the ski resorts? Will they pay relocation. I would lose the car....
MOVING
Regardless of where I move, it will cost.
Snow fields are relatively close, probably not too much.
Darwin....mmmmm......hot.....long way, lots of stuff, no guarantee of work...no contacts...good hot...
ITALY
Why the fuck not?
Need more assurances fron Joe that I can get work, living space, language barrier.....why the fuck not?
HOW DO I FEEL?
A bit sad - a bit angry, not as much as I thought
Lost - where do I go from here?
Disappointed
Really sad actually
Inadequate - is that an emotion?
Not really sure - kind of sorry for myself because I fell short of their requirements
SAD because I liked working there and I've got to know a lot of the people
You make connections in jobs like mine and it hurts to walk away
The thing that really hurts is that in 6 months, they'll all forget who I was and any influence I might have had on them
TRANSIENT
Feeling pretty upset
Confused
Not knowing what the future holds
Very alone, lonely, alone
Objectified - used - fucked up - sad
Need to talk to **** **** and ***** ****** and let them know that although I'm sad, I do understand the decision that was made. They were on the selection committee and the person that was at the club today didn't make eye contact or talk to me for the whole day. Maybe they feel guilty....If they feel it was the best decision for the club then they shouldn't feel guilty...or should they....
How do I get over being sad and not having it be the end of the world for me?
How can I turn this into a positive?
Is this much introspection harmful?
How do I stop failing?

TRANSIENCE
I have no roots, no where to call home
No stability - at 35 years of age
No home
No family of my own - besides my Mum and Dad who are totally insane (really they are totally insane) but are everything to me
No plan for the future
No idea of where I fit in
I sort of found a niche and almost kept it - I had them fooled for a while and then they finally saw through it
I'm scared I'll never fit in
Shit, I'm scared
How do I deal with it?
Can I fix it?
What am I doing wrong?
What am I doing right?
Do I continue feeling sorry for myself?
Or do I make the necessary changes that are positive?
Stupid.
Of course I make changes.

Thursday, April 06, 2006

A change is as good as a holiday...or so they say

I
I cut my hair and dyed it dark. I really wanted a holiday but I can't afford one.
Still no word about my job.

Sunday, April 02, 2006

Tell It like It Is.....

Met a guy...
Met a guy, cute, young, new...sex is great, I think it's totally underrated....
Don't know if I'll get my job...here's to new beginnings...