Splendour in the Grass...

22/07/05

Friday morning, so tired. My ex called last night after I finished work. It was nice to talk to him. He makes me laugh! He wants me back so that we can have lots of sex. Couldn't tell him that MCITG is much bigger compared to him. He's jealous that am having sex with MCITG, he says his current girlfriend(on and off) is not at all interested, doesn't even like sex. Hah, that's what you get for dumping a chick that loves sex.

I fucking can't believe that I took those keys home last night, I hope BB got them in the taxi and back there this morning like I asked.

Had a bit of a panic attack when the girl at the check in said I couldn't take my Zippo on board. The security guy said is was fine though. Whew! So tired, just want sleep. I reckon I'll set up my tent and read for a bit. Sleep tonight.

I'm a bit excited!! Plane delayed by an hour!

Almost walked out of the house without my tickets! Went back and retrieved them. Brought three large condoms,(Ooops) not that I am planning on picking up.

Here at last!!

Got tent up, it's got sand in it, but that's OK, no spiders is good.

23/07/05

I'm in. Spent the morning trying to sleep, read, waited for a cold shower(picked the wrong cubicle, not the hot water one) Am totally paranoid about getting drunk and sunburnt. Bought a hat, walked around. It's pretty muddy in here. Found this table, right next to the Taboo Boo weidro's tent.They're playing the stuff from House of 1000 corpses. I get it.
I got a beer, trying to take it slowly.
That's really funny. The new Rob Zombie movie was released yesterday in the US.
People watching.
Two Old guys sitting at the table just left. I was eavesdropping on part of their conversation.
There's a weird noise.
It's a bit windy.
More people sit down.
The old guys were talking about "the drugs of today" - telling each other of the effects - talking about the JJJ granny in the grass comp - the "Cocaine" incident.
Lots of merchandise. Would like to buy some.
So many different types of people - mostly(nearly all - OK - all except me!) are in a group.
So young! Some not so young.
A girl walked past & she had a mouth just like the porn star Tracey Lords. Not attractive to me but to any male that watched a lot of porn - MCITG.

A weird ritual begins in the tent behind me. There's quite a crowd gathering.Leather clad chick cracking a whip "performance art" on herself. Bad hymns being sung in falsetto. There's a guy, long Bin Laden beard and hair, looks so much like two exes of mine. Weird. It could be anyone under there - couldn't see the sleeve though. Trippy.
Not just young people - old people too - many NQR - like me - a few on their own as well.
Getting a pretty good sound out here - a bit muffled but OK.
Hat is cute but itchy. Glad I brought my jacket - gets hot in the sun but cool wind - works now, is nice. So far a clear day, will be colder tonight - I was plenty warm enough last night. Feel like I'll run out of paper or ink, so many observations.
Would love some official merchandise. Need more cash.
I think this band was critiqued in the paper.
Wish I could use a camera, can shoot a gun, but have the worst camera shot ever. Feels like people staring again, way too paranoid.
Should go out again, the camp site is not very far, and handy to top up and have some cones. Everyone has pot in here anyway, I just can't afford to be stuck here for something as silly as that.
A lot of cops walking around, sort of an unspoken warning.
Weird ritual still going, should walk now and come back.

Went out and got back in - forgot my wallet and had to go back and retrieve it so the next round of paranoia has been alleviated..
Line ups for everything, merchandise tent is unbelievable - so many people here - I am so totally alone in this massive sea of people.

Band - DRAG - bloody awful.
Wish I had got the Sheriff t-shirt printed. Would've been funny.

Cops walk by and this guy, it's funny how people - probably innocent but paranoid - acts so guilty and defensive that they look guilty.
Would love a drink, just hate the line up.

Ate pizza and a hot dog - have indigestion - lucky I brought antacids.
Some really high maintenance girls and fashion victims - people should dress according to their size and shape.
Things are so 80's.
Low waisted jeans are not for girls with no arse, not a good look.
Some babes - not as many as I'd hoped - MCITG would hate the crowds.
Sun is warm - but I'm worried about the cold sore aspect mostly.
Already a huge line up for the loos.
A halfa would help my people watching skills form here. As would easy access to beer - not going to happen.
Heaps of guys with dreadies, no real obvious bikers, but a few wannabes.
There are some weirdos out there in the crowd. Do people really wear that stuff in public? I mean outside of festivals and fancy dress parties.
Who brings babies and toddlers to show like this?
So many people should also dress age appropriately. I think I did.
Weird guy all dressed up, has stuffed toys sewn to his "catsuit" - eeuuww, man in a bright orange catsuit. People are stopping him for photos.
This band is OK, good crowd interaction too.

Definitely feel like I'm getting sunburnt - looked for cold sore stuff and I forgot it.

People are muddy - the tents are too close because when outside like this, you can hear
all the dance stuff from the other side of the site too.

Wonder if I look like a crazy paranoid schizo?

Lots of yobbos and idiots, but not so many trashed people.

QOTSA are still a long way off.

Am feeling aggressive, possibly defensive...
Sun is getting lower, no obvious sunburn, but it's getting colder.

Not so many obviously gassed up people either. Very mellow crowd,

Now, to put you up to date with what I did last night...
I went into town, did some touristy window shopping, had a couple of beers, then bought a pipe, then had some ciders, played pokies and won $80, nearly got into a fight and then went back.

Back to today...
Went back to the tent - one of the camp marshals - I think his name was Josh - remembered my name, that's pretty amazing since there would have to be thousands of people camping. And most people don't remember my name anyway. Had another pipe. Put some more clothes on.

Will put some more on this another time, I have at least another thousand words or more....

Frustrations....

Another day at work. I bludged as much as I could tonight since I have done a lot of hours this week.
I am getting no support form the administration staff, to the point that there are some rather large obstacles in my path, which are there to either piss me off, or to put a fast end to my career. It will go one way or the other, I don't believe that there any compromises to be had here.
I will not put up with people that are so insecure that they won't let me get on with my job for fear I might show them up. There is yet another very insecure woman I am trying to deal with that must be very fearful of keeping her job. If I ask for something to be done, it doesn't get done. If I ask to help in order to get what I need done quicker, I am given a very fast no. Ultimatums will be given next week, with the result being that I get what I need, or she gets told from someone higher up.
I have realised that when I am in a job I feel more than capable of doing and someone gets in my way, or makes me look bad, my capricorn nature shows itself full strength.
I say to this woman, BEWARE, I will not back down. What I expected today was reasonable, but what I expect from now on will be more than she failed to produce already. She will regret that she got in my way, and I will find a way to make sure that she knows that.

Bloody Collingwood, I lost dinner and a movie on that game tonight, and the chance to gloat. I am happy that now I get to have dinner and go to a movie with MCITG, but would rather have had him pay!!

I need a holiday and Byron is looking so far away, next Friday is a long time away when I have a battle to win before I go. I hope that it doesn't rain, but if it does then I won't really care, because I'll be there.

Obstacles......

I really wonder if obstacles are thrown in my path to make me stronger, or to just piss me off.
I am coming up against some opposition at work. Partly due to my strong personality, and partly due to the fact that the place is run by a "committee". I stood up for myself tonight, and I don't know if that was in my favour, or against. There is no way, with the staffing resources I have available to me at the moment, I can do the drinks at a sit down dinner for 240 people, and be proud of the service. I can hire temp staff and know that I will be able to get the job done and done well, but unless I can outsource, I just will not be able to do it.
The problem with a committee is that there are too many people, and they don't communicate with each other, nor do they consult with those people that are expected to deliver what they decide on. This is going to be my first make or break, head to head showdown. If I survive this, then I may live to fight another battle, if not, then let them do it on their own.
I also don't like to be bullied and there is someone that needs to pull their head in now, or lose.
I heard an interesting comment today. "Don't expect the members to be your friend, and never drink on the premises."
I am sure that I have made enemies already, but I have a few onside. And the only time I have a drink is if it is really late, everyone has gone home, and I am doing the clean up. I don't like to drink and drive.
One of the older members told me to stand my ground and I am going to do just that. I would rather not have my name associated with shabby service and be ejected from my position than to have them come back and say that what was provided was bad.

So there!!!!

It feels great to be getting all of this off my chest here again, I should not have waited so long.

Any feed back will be much appreciated.

I'm back....

Well, it's been a while. I have been busy at work, trying to get my head around the way things have been done there, and slowly implementing changes to help it run more smoothly and economically. It's been difficult, everyone there is so complacent, and to not isolate myself(or become the "Super Bitch" I was called the other night) is just as important as getting the place ship shape - ha that's a pun.

The other reason I haven't been blogging is that I have become hooked on online poker. It became a bit like an addiction for a while, but I think I'm over the worst of it.

I have to get my shit together if I plan on staying at this place, and I also have to convince the people that work there that I am not threatening their positions. I seem to have that effect on other women in the work place. All I want to do is be able to have access to the systems that are directly involved in my job, but for them to relinquish contol is an obstacle. As I am on premises after the office workers go home, I need to be able to get to the problems that occur after hours, and since they all seem to be so busy, I can't get the things I need in the time frame that I need them to be done. For the size of the organisation, the amount of office staff they have there seems to me to be inappropriate. They should be able to get all of their work done and have time left over. I don't know what they do all day, but they can't be very organised.

My next problem is staff. I need to find some staff that have the same work ethic as myself. I think my standards are too high. I expect my staff to be able to work as hard and as smart as I do, but that's too much to expect. Even if they could take some initiative, it would be better than what I have observed so far. So, how do I find people that can work, that are happy to do only a few shifts a month, and that have a good attitude? I'm at a standstill on that one, but have some ideas. I will probably advertise on some uni job boards, because I don't have the hours to spend sifting through job applications from internet job sites(no one reads the ad past the first line, and I haven't the time to read 400 useless applications).

On another note, Splendour in the Grass is not far off, and I am really excited. I have all the tickets booked and paid for, but I think I will spend all my time worrying about how the staff will cope while I am not there. I hope I can switch off long enough to enjoy the weekend!!

Must get ready for work again, so much to do, so little support.....